I am beginning to realize that people you love can break your heart without even knowing it...

and it hurts!

But in the midst of the pain, the heartbreak, and the questions... I have begun to wonder if I have ever broken someone's heart unintentionally? So, I just wanted to say...

If I have ever hurt your heart, I am so sorry. I didn't know how fragile love was.
I wasn't aware of the pain my words, my actions, and my responses could cause.
If I have ever left you offended or have ignored you or, worse, have rejected you--can you ever forgive me?
I should have told you a long time ago... I love you! Is it too late now for me to say that, because I really do love you. I never ever ever wanted to hurt you! I love you!



"Pain is very real... but hope is also real... God is in the business of redemption... The vision is better endings. The vision is the possibility that we are more loved than we'll ever know. The vision is Hope, and Hope is real... We were made to be lovers in bold and broken places... God makes things new, He meant hope and healing in the stars..." - TWLOHA

"He knew not that he had a pre-engaged heart to attack." - Jane Austen, Mansfield Park

To provide some context, this line is about a man who is proposing to a woman who is already in love with another character, not that they were actually engaged--just that she could not be deterred. He is doing his utmost to persuade her but, unfortunately for him, her affections were sealed.
This line makes me fall in love with Jane Austen all over again. I am so in love with her prose that I have begun calling her simply "Jane."
"I'm going to spend some time with Jane..."
"Oh Jane is brilliant!"
Sacrilegious, I know! But, I adore her so much and this little line reminds me why!

But after re-reading this line half a dozen times today, I thought, "I want that to be said about my heart!"
When someone calls, I'm not planning on playing hard-to-get, but I do want to have a "pre-engaged heart."
Pastor Norm once said that you can't start courting until you're engaged.
I'm reminded of the beautiful yet nearly cliche line:
A girl's heart should be so lost in God that a man has to pursue Him to find her.
Amen amen!

I am so deeply in love with Him, but I want more. I want to get lost in the depths of His heart!
I want it to be said of my man, "He knew not that he had a pre-engaged heart to attack." :)