Do you ever get overwhelmed with the reality of existence? The weightiness of life? Like you can glimpse some bit of eternity or something.
I've only heard a bit about the turmoil in Egypt. I read about accidental deaths or murders on a daily basis. I see hatred in the world.
I also see love. I see people do beautiful things. Even simple acts sometimes make me want to cry. I see contagious vulnerability and it makes me want to live transparently, generously, humbly.
Sometimes it seems to be too much. There is so much of every extreme in this world. We've found a million ways to divide humanity and only a handful to unite. That handful of reasons are strong though. I'm realizing more and more that God doesn't view us through our divisions. He didn't see the woman at the well as "a Samaritan." He doesn't see Egyptians or Americans. He doesn't see race the way we do. He sees His family - both those who are lost and those who have been found by Him. We can be so harsh, so critical. What if I was born in Syria rather than the US? What if I was a druggie-baby in foster care? What if I lived in poverty with little educational encouragement? I am immensely grateful for where and when God placed me. But how can I take pride in something I had no control over? So who am I to judge?
The Lord has been speaking to me about seeing the sameness rather than seeing the differences. I want to love all his people. This leads some people to think I'm over-sensitive. But when you truly empathize with another human being - how could I not be sensitive when people say such harsh things about them or, even worse, when they completely ignore them? I'm not perfect at this. More than not, I probably do incredibly insensitive things. I know I don't empathize enough. If I did, I'm pretty sure my priorities would look completely different. But I am listening to Father, and I'm allowing Him to change my priorities - if ever so slowly. But even when it's painful - I'm grateful. Because when it comes down to it, there is not much of a difference between me and the overlooked, unloved people so far away.
Today, this is my glimpse of life. It is a weight on my soul. But it is also a gift.
There is no great difference between us. In the words of GK Chesterton: “We are all in the same boat, in a stormy sea, and we owe each other a terrible loyalty.”