"Opportunity," however, is not all a rosy. It involves a lot of variables. There are risks to be taken. There are often multiple opportunities vying for priority, and adulthood means having to pick a card and hope you picked right. Opportunity is about risk with the chance of reward.
But when looking up "opportunity" in the dictionary, the word I found over and over was "favorable." Opportunity is "a favorable, appropriate, or advantageous combination of circumstances; a chance or prospect." Like a mountain concealed by clouds, I believe favor is still there, guiding me. Even in silence. Even in pain.
This year I've learned that opportunity can come in all shapes and sizes. In 2013, it looked like...
...less money in my savings account than I'd like.
...filling up journals and blog drafts faster than I could possibly process experiences.
...#refusetobeacog, etc. Generally raging against the machine, in search of something deeper.
...being moved to tears by a simple song lyric.
...belting out said song lyrics in a park with tens of thousands of others, led by Mumford & Co.
...sitting on the kitchen floor sobbing my guts out because of narrative and because, no matter how made up it is, it's true.
...having wonderful adventures with visiting friends.
...just doing "it."
...riotous run-ins with bus admirers.
...accepting titles I had always been afraid of [see, "writer"].
...writing in rounds.writing for release.
...opening up to someone, but
...meeting artists I'd been inspired by.
...cubicle parties and embracing dress-up more than ever before!
...a lot of Baggins vs. Took inner wrestling.
...having my own bathroom for the first time in my life.
...walking through vineyards, through the streets of Nob Hill, and through countless bookshops.
...finding myself in one of those bookshops with news that blindsided me, rendering me unable to even buy a book - all of them hurt somehow.
...picnics by the lake with good friends.
...moving out with my best friend.
...bearing friends' dreams and burdens and hopes and joys.
...waiting on the Lord
...new revelations on stewardship - body, soul, and spirit.
...road trips for record books.
...a lot of Doctor Who. all. the. feels!
...flexing the forgiveness muscle.
...flexing the humility-and-asking-forgiveness muscle.
...challenging myself to go beyond what I thought myself capable of.
...a lot of "self-induced" late nights.
...inconveniences. "An adventure is only an inconvenience rightly considered..."
...meeting lots of new fantastic(al) characters.
...learning that the Lord is the only one I can implicitly and whole-heartedly trust.
It's been one blaze of a year - peaks and valleys and everything in between. But, as Sheldon Vanauken said, "If there were a choice – and he suspected there was – a choice between, on the one hand, the heights and the depths and, on the other hand, some sort of safe, cautious middle way, he, for one, here and now, chose the heights and the depths."
Here are to all the opportunities you & I have had this year, and here's to all the ones coming in 2014!